Monday, July 14, 2008

Teardrops on my blogpost

Ouch. I know you didn't mean it how I took it but it hurt all the same to be reminded how I hurt you so badly, not once but twice.

I can't ever change what I did to you, or to anyone. All the disappointments and hurts I've caused, I can't take back...It's all I can do to try to move on and not let the guilt and pain eat me alive. Because some nights, when I open my eyes and cry quietly to the dark, it just does. Like a knife that rips through my heart and gut...through my eyes and soul. And I cry, I cry for every person I've hurt, let down and disappointed.

I don't think I could ever apologize enough or tell you how much I love you enough to ever make up for doing what I did. Maybe I will someday, hopefully, but not tonight.

Tonight, these tears are for you, Chris.

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